Lol! I know this is kinda late haha but I've been lazy to blog this few days ..... just so sian haha. So I guess I'll think back and try to recall the events that happened this day. Lately .... for some reasons .... I'm just so confused with myself .... and everything around me. Just dont feel like myself this days haha .... lol ..... But these few days, I've seen quite abit of stuff here and there from many sources and realised .... so gradually I've begin to understand. Theres this phrase that came to my mind too .... that may seem familiar to some ppl haha 'Admiration is the furtherest way to understanding' which is true i guess. (ok its from an anime .... but the scene is quite sad ....) Confusion occurs when u think and worry about things. So why not just dont think about anything at all and live your life the way it is? Be satisfied with what you have before you lose everything. Haha ... seems queer but just before my birthday at night, there was this thing that alarmed me ..... to the point that I was literally jolted back to earth from dreamland ..... a nightmre ... I shant elaborate much even though it's still fresh in my mind ..... haha even though a similar dream happened once when I was young. I dreamed something happened to my family ..... and only I was alive. They say the last person in a group alive is always the one in the most pain .... And I felt it ..... It made me wake up and I was glad that I was back on my bed ..... very relieved with an extreme backache that made me sleep facedown ....... hahaha .....